Healthy!

I had a doctor appointment to evaluate my "metabolic syndrome" conditions of high cholesterol and high glucose. What a wonderful change my eating plan of 8 months has caused. My cholesterol is 156 (drop of about 75 points)and I am not in the pre-diabetic range for glucose. I received a personal note from my doctor acknowledging how great this is. I took one of those "tests" online "What is Your True Age ?" and mine is 39!! In addition to how much my appearance has changed, living the structured plan of eating and using the tools of OA-H.O.W. is adding years to my life. It has been so painless and stress-free. I am so grateful.

Self Will/God's Will

...praying only for knowledge of God's will for us and the power to carry that out. Step 11

This is a tall order for me. I pray for all kinds of things I want or want to happen. I am afraid to pray for God's will because I hate to be told no. I have a hard time accepting God's will because I have a hard time believing God loves me and wants what's best for me and others. I have always thought I know what is best for me and for others. The proof that is not true is obvious, so I probably should stop praying for my will to be done! There is so much more peace for me if I let God do the work, so I can rest. Having played God, I know it is exhausting and the more I don't do it, the better I feel. I can't fix situations, convince others to do what I think is best, or make others change. It is so much more peaceful if I give it all to my Higher Power, so I can keep busy doing the things I am to do: be abstinent, use the tools of my program, and be kind & loving. And from my favorite Bible verse: "...Do justice, love mercy, and walk humbly with my God." Micah 6:8.

Weigh-in Day

June 1 was weigh-in day and I have lost 5.5 more pounds for a total of 50.5. I am now very close to entering the range for my ideal weight. I cannot believe this. I have a doctor appointment to establish the my goal weight, but even to be near the range is a miracle. I haven't weighed this little for more than a minute in 45 years! And I am guaranteed that I will maintain this weight, if I follow my HOW program and remain abstinent.